As I am writing this, I am in my last few hours of being 39. I’m filled with all kinds of emotions. Some are about work and the stress there, some about life, and the rest is about this moment… THE moment I’ve been working toward for the last 2.5 years and even longer.
I really set myself up. I made this day bigger than it needs to be. I’ve made it this whole new life of mine. I’ve made it into a defining moment. But… how do I want it to define me?
Will this moment break me if I haven’t done ALL I set out to do?
Will it make me a super human if I do complete what I set out to do?
What’s going to happen?
Let me let the cat out of the bag…
I didn’t reach all my goals by 40. I didn’t.
Here’s the fork in the road moment: Do I allow this moment to shape be negatively or positively? That’s the choice we all make throughout our lives when we set goals. We can fail, quit, learn, celebrate, cuss, bash ourselves, be positive, or step back and look at what really has happened pragmatically.
Let’s look at my journey:
What I didn’t do: Multiple Chest to Bar, Multiple Pull Ups, Strict Pull Ups (or multiples), muscle up (or multiple), ring muscle up (or multiple), Hand stand, hand stand push ups, hand stand walk, ring hand stand, ring hand stand push ups, pistols, being able to “run like the wind”, or strict press #200+ lbs.
That’s what I didn’t do. I could beat myself up about it and put myself down. I could quit and stop this journey say E’ff THIS! We have all been here and many of us quit. Stopping here is the worst Idea EVER!
Let’s look at what I did do over this journey…
Competed in CrossFit Competitions
won some competitions + did some RX partner competitions
Lost #130+ LBS + Lost 15%+ Body Fat
Got ALL my lifts over #200 (Except Strict Press)
Got Toes to Bar + Pull Ups + Rope Climbs + 30″ Box Jumps
Getting Double Under fairly well and getting better
Changed CrossFit Boxes (which was the toughest experience, but it’s good)
Changed houses and towns
Graduated from Seminary + Became a Pastor
Became Confident and Comfortable with myself and who I am
Beat many food addictions and won + Stopped drinking ALL soda
Grew an AWESOME beard and then trimmed it back down
Learned to travel and stay on plan + got comfortable dropping into boxes when away
Flew without a belt extender in the airplane + became comfortable traveling
Kept this blog going consistently + became the #1 blog in Nashville
Took over a Podcast + became the #1 podcast in Nashville
Helped other people make life changes and keep working them
Got my L1 and get to coach CrossFit now
Got sponsored by multiple companies/ people who believed in me and helped me get to where I am now.
Competed in Strongman
These last 2.5 years have been AWESOME! There’s no way I can look at this list and say I missed the mark or that I was not successful. I have continually surprised myself along this journey. I still do things that I never knew were possible for me. I hope that continues the rest of my life.
I don’t know what 40 will hold, but I know my goals are still out there and I still want to see how far I can push myself. I think the most important accomplishments are three things: 1. Feeling confident and comfortable with me. 2. Being able to travel well. 3. Knowing more and more each day what “good” really feels like.
I never knew what I was missing when I was more overweight. I didn’t know what good was, until I experienced some of it. Good is way better then I ever dreamed.
As for the Blog… it will continue. I might change the name but I will keep it going until I run out of goals. So… here’s to 40! Let’s see what happens next!